The Other Side of A Love Story

I like to watch love story movies, I always like happy endings. I like to pretend I was the girl in the story. I'd end up crying because my life is full of sad endings.

Recently I began to wonder what happens to the other part of the story? Remember in The Notebook, when Allie broke up with Lon? What ever happened to Lon? How did he cope up? I know this is a stupid question since the movie is about Noah and Allie. It's supposed to have a happy ending for them.

This came to my attention because, I found myself on the other side a Love Story.

Three months after my boyfriend and I broke up, during his birthday, he sent me a message giving me his number. I wanted to greet him so I called him up. I was by the way, half way through my healing process(after the break up and all). It turns out he wanted back in my life. At that point I was still angry and was very careful with my decisions. I didn't' want to go back to square one of my healing process. But since he seemed sincere, I was willing to try again.

So I asked him every question there was about the relationship. Later he proposed and just as I was going to say yes, I found out they(with the other girl) were together the day he proposed to me. Again, I found myself falling into a bottomless pit. No matter what the wrongs I did in my life, I definitely did not deserve this. We had a very long conversation about what he really wanted. In the end, it was still the same, he wanted me but he still had to go to work(she was a co worker) and he couldn't guarantee anything.

I don't know how angry I am this time. I just don't want to show it, to show how stupid I am. I am weary, bone weary. I don't want to talk to anyone anymore. I know the story is finished. Another happy ending (in the making) for them, not for me.

I guess, I'm back to square one.